[TW Sexual Assault]
I once had a group of men encircle me and laugh after one of them had grabbed my butt at a party. Said party-boy had his hand raised, motioning for me to high-five him. I was frightened, intoxicated and surrounded by drunk strangers twice my size. I ended up high-fiving my assailant so he and his friends would leave me alone.
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I keep thinking how done I am with things and then I just repeat the same motions the next day and so on.
With the risk of sounding jealous or petty, it frustrates me that people think any old photographer can be a unit stills photographer. There’s so much more to it than just taking nice photos.
Last night I had a dream that my uni group changed the colour of the shorts we ordered for costume behind my back. I think this aptly describes the real life situation, in meaning not physically.
i found an image that accurately describes my drive and motivation in life
“Everyone’s born confident, and everything’s taken away from you.”
Jenni! My advice would be to finish your degree squeeze out anything positive you could ever get from it and then… ignore everything they said! When it comes photography do the things you want to do! I don’t know if there’s a specific part of photography you want to do but try everything! Just go out and photograph!
Do some portraits, get on to istockphoto! I just looked through your flickr again and you did some wonderful photos of objects. Just shoot everything and anything in a flattering way and put it on there :)
I know you can be such a beautiful photographer! Don’t let them bring you down!
- *lying in bed*
- Me: Tomorrow I'm going to start exercising, yeah, and I'll get fit. I'm gonna cut all the chocolate and junk food out of my diet too, and just eat healthy. And I'm going to start going to bed earlier, and not waiting until the last minute to do assignments. Then I'll have less stress. And I'm going to start going over my schoolwork every night so studying isn't so hard when exams come. And I'll take care of my skin and hair, and be kinder to everyone. And I'll be more confident. I'll just be a better person, yeah.
- *in the morning*
- Me: ah fuck it.
So I bought the 50 shades of grey ebook and I’m getting closer to finishing it. You can totally tell it started as a Twilight fan fiction and I keep thinking them as Edward and Bella. And as much as it is addictive I really hope any young women don’t go in search of doms expecting it to be like it is with Gray. I imagine it is definitely not like that in real life. And I hope women don’t convince their boyfriends to do bdsm and do it without being safe. I’ve read so many horror stories of unsafe bdsm.
Edit: And it’s written terribly.
So I keep saying I want to blog more. I’ll explain more in a sec.
First I wanted to say that my film I mentioned in my last random blog has been successfully made and we had some positive feedback and good grades! Cinematography ended up ok and sound needs some work. But over the summer I’m hoping to sort out any problems that can be fixed and then hopefully… festivals! Looking forward to showing it around places. Story is our strongest element so I hope people like that.
Secondly this week I’m AD’ing my first music video! Actually it’s my first time AD’ing anything professional. Although I have done tad bits before. Thanks to blogs on here and lots of lots of tip sheets I feel pretty confident and I’ll be surrounded by people I trust. Unpaid but hey ho another thing to put on the CV!
Thirdly I am very aware (and slightly worried) that in September I will be in my third and last year of film school and then I will be entering the big bad world. This scares me to death. Especially as I don’t have much experience on the old CV. Even if I make a great Graduation film this WILL NOT be NEARLY enough to get me jobs in the industry. So alas I am trying to get experience and running jobs. I have a whole summer, problem is finding the people who are willing to take on someone inexperienced. Time to e-mail the shit outta people! I have an idea of what I need to send to companies however thanks to producer who has a child in my mother’s nursery. He also got me work experience on a cricket coverage programme (Didn’t enjoy it - Maybe I’ll explain more later) but it’s something to put on the CV (I spot a trend here!).
Anyway based on this last point I may start a blog on me trying to get in the industry. Even if no-one reads it may help me realise what I have to do and grow. Entry into this tough industry is a hot topic right now and this has probably been done a million times but I hope to add and edge to it, from a not only british angle but a Welsh one. I live in Cardiff one of the up and coming capitol cities for TV productions and film (Wales in general is attracting more and more films - Snow White and Wrath of the Titans are recents). So anyway if you have read all this let me know what you think and I’ll have a think about it :) It may help my sanity too!
At first I’m like,
Then I trip over something like,